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Dang it, my boys are leaving for their nearly two month vacation tomorrow morning and I won't get to see them today at all because of their hectic schedule. I could've seen them earlier in the week had it not been for my insane working schedule. Dang it, JCP, I hate you! My boys are leaving without a goodbye!

I hate this. I try to transform myself and make myself feel better, and then I go and make things worse. I hate myself and everything I ever will be.

Don't give up, Beloved! I am here for you! You are loved, my precious one...

Okay, umm... Terminator : Salvation... Christian Bale as John Connor.

WHOA BABY. SIGN. ME. UP.

Please come out Friday, oh dear movie of mine. I must see you and all your Christian Bale-ified glory!

As another busy work-week comes to a close and a not-so-busy one begins, I'm going to take the next few days that I'm not working to fully immerse myself in the most emotional painting project I've ever done. I'm painting another shelf, but this one is special and quite frankly personal. So far it's a pretty metallic purple and underneath, the part of the shelf people will actually see, are several words that describe me (faith, songs, friends, stories, etc.). On the top, though, is what will pretty much be for my eyes only and those fortunate to see the shelf before I hang it up.

With opinions taken from my family and close friends, I decided to put lines from my favorite poems on the main portion of the shelf. Some of my favorite poems are the ones that have expressed some of the saddest events of my life, but I think this will be a good thing. I'm hoping that this piece of work I'll be doing will be something I can pass on through my family, as silly as it sounds. An heirloom?

Regardless of the sentimental value it may not hold down the line, I'll know I put my heart in it. Here's to art - and here't to creativity.

Tonight was the Relay for Life, my third year to participate, and while the turn-out wasn't as nice as I had hoped, I still had fun. I met a lot of really great people, had some great food and enjoyed celebrating my mom's awesome story. To remind those who are unaware, my mother is now a 24 year survivor of thyroid cancer, and the doctors, even after treatments, gave her only six months to five years to live. Way to go Mom, eh? Woot! So here she is - the Survivor of Survivors!



Thanks for all you've done, Mom. I know I've been a cranky daughter this last year, but hey - you're an awesome mother and I couldn't want a better one. Right on!

I've been resisting making this post because I feel so incredibly giddy about it, but I can't hold back anymore.

The other night I renewed my love for "Chitty chitty bang bang" and can't stop singing the songs now, much less the urge to get up and do the dancing numbers. I mean, really, how can one possibly resist the temptation to get up and dance around with a cane while listening to "Me ole bamboo"? Or how can one not have tears in their eyes when "Hushabye mountain" plays in the background?

CCBB was one of my favorite childhood movies for years and has now reclaimed its place in my heart never to be put up on the shelf again. It has such a magical quality to it that I can't help but smile as I sing the lyrics that I never paid attention to this time fifteen years ago. I also laugh since I know the meaning behind "POSH" now - never understood that song until two days ago. lol

So with a light spirit, I encourage you all to get out those old VCRs and find your VHS copy of Chitty, because it will make you feel like a kid again ^__^

Because my life pretty much revolves around the planetary system of Buchla/Tiberio, I come bearing videos and pictures! First, the video to entice you, and then a cut to lure you into a pit of never-ending fun! lol

Hope you like, Tracey. ^_~

Easter Sunday with my family of fun-tastic!


( More for your viewing pleasures... )

No, this certainly wasn't an excuse to show off my totally awesome new Sailor Pluto icon. Nyarrrr, so prettyyyyyyyyyy!

Lately I've found a lot of strength in the example my closest friends have been giving me. One is going through her own personal battles, struggling, but putting one foot in front of the other every day. She pushes through the grim and mundane by her own determination, and all the while still educating herself for her future. She doesn't realize that what I lack she has gained in my place and I couldn't be more proud of her. And the other is facing permanent physical pain, thus robbing him of his time with his children. Probably more than ever right now, he moves me with his determination to still remain highly active for his kids. Despite being in agony he's going to put his baby girl on his shoulders. He will ignore that spasm in his back so he can play basketball with his twin boys. He never fails to show me the power a single human body can posess. I find so much inspiration in both of them.

This sucks! Both my teams are out of the tournament already! You stupid NCAA Committee and your stupid rules for picking out your stupid brackets! You're not fair at all! GRR!

*weeps over her Butler and Ohio State boys' losses*

What's this? First meme in months, I believe. Captured from sabordefresa and spotlighting on my most recent squish, Jim Gordon! Woot!

1. Do you like this character?
No, I just bought a Dark Knight calendar today for the sole purpose of getting the one picture I can't find of him. DUH! Favorite character in the Batman universe, hands-down!

2. What name/names do you call this character?
Lawl "Commissioner" and just Gordon. Occasionally "The Old Man". lol

3. What image-color do you associate with character?
He seems to wear a lot of browns, grays and some black. Rather dull, isn't he?

4. What image-song do you associate with character?
Probably Clay Aiken's "Measure of a man", since he's just a simple guy in a corrupt society trying to do the right thing

5. What blood-type do you think this character is?
Absolutely no clue o.O

6. Of all of the titles that this character appears in, what character do you like to put this character with?
His wifey-snookums. lol And I'll admit to the obvious undertones with Batman himself. Not very subtle, are we, Mr.Nolan?

7. What would you want to say to this character?
I probably wouldn't be able to muster words and would more than likely crumble at his feet from the awesome, but if I could I think I'd say something along the lines of "You are the world's best dad, cop and husband - you rock!"

8. Which do you want to do with this character: Shake hands, hug or kiss?
...*looks around* All three. lol

9. Please choose 5 friends with your choice of character.
If you want to, feel free!

I... can't stop looking at my icon. This isn't fair! GRR!

The value of friendship is worth more than any fortune known to man. It's more precious than the ring one can wear on their finger and will look even better with wear and tear. My fingerprints cover my loved ones because friendship is my savings account. I don't need to invest in anything else.

Okay dude, no seriously - just finished watching The Dark Knight and amazingly loved it. Didn't really have much of a Batman feel at all to it, but hey, that's all right. Who said it had to?

So here's the biggest surprise: favorite character? No, not Batman. Nope, not even Joker. Then who? AHA! Gordon! Why? HE'S A DADDY! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

Ya know, if I'm not careful, I could have another one of those big fangirl moments. Dun tell me I need to add someone to my Fangirling List...

...Tee hee!

Kelly. John. Thanks for getting me hooked on "Thanks for the memories". lol Your Telle's starting to dance on a regular basis now - just thought you'd like to know ^_^;;

Yeah, I don't listen to the radio anymore, so I just got introduced to this song recently. I'm a bit late to the party, I know. lol

Dear Mom and Dad,

For the love of God, I am not tech support! Figure the stupid computers out for yourselves if you want to watch the dumb game that badly! Give me two minutes to myself since I am home finally. Disappointed, but home. I'd like to write if it's OKAY WITH YOU... >.<

Not a whole lotta love at the moment,

Telle

God, I wish I was somewhere else right now. Being at home sucks and I hate it. I love that I have a roof over my head and I am grateful, don't get me wrong. It's just when I emphasize that on a rare night like tonight when I feel like I can try to write and thus I want to be alone, they never respect it and barge in my room fifteen million times for help with the computers. You know something? I really don't care if the sound doesn't work on the game, Mom. Whenever you watch them on TV you have the sound turned off anyway, so why does it matter?

Just leave me alone for at least an hour, okay, Parents? I need some time to think...

Well hello there, LJ! I uhh, wish I had a better excuse for neglecting you, but I'm lacking one. All I can say is I'm sorry and that RL has had me by the reins pretty much since New Years. The last several weeks have been rough, trying and heartbreaking. I came close to just up and leaving my home on many nights I was so upset with the way things have been going. I had never wanted to run away so badly until recently.

But I'm steadily overcoming these issues and have resolved that hopefully in the next couple of months I can be out of the house and making my own way. I'm pushing for a second job to help make this possible, and though that will wear me down like crazy, it'll be worth it. I've had offers from several close friends to stay with them temporarily until I could get by on my own, so this will give me the opportunity to save up more money for the future.

( So what's happened in the last few weeks? )

( I feel like sharing pictures and videos again. Enjoy! )

It's time to make a change. I'll be a better person. No more of this cold shoulder crap. They want a happy-go-lucky Telle? Gosh darn it, they're gonna get one.

I am not a quitter. Mom taught me better than that.

Satan, you will NOT get the better of me in this fight. I AM going to win whether you like it or not, so take a hike!

Now with eaglesspirit safely nestled in her new dorm at college, away from home, and with my 13thleprechaun on the verge of getting her first car, I want to take a moment and share my thoughts on these girls.

I met Shizu first - in mid '03 on fanfiction.net. We met by way of our stories, interacted, e-mailed, IM'd about a year later, had some phone calls in '05, then met that summer. We have had our moments of glee, stupidity, and angst, but Shizu has been faithful and honest with me. Now she's 20 and I feel a little like an older sister, cautioning my younger siblings and giving them advice about things they haven't come across yet. I hope Shizu doesn't mind me talking about her like this, but she really has been invaluable and I cherish every second with her. She has the skills to both amuse and amaze a nation, I promise you that.

Tiffany I met near the end of '04, shortly after I moved from Indiana to Florida. We got together at a church function and hit it off right away. Most people already know Tiff's story of her life at home, and it's sad, but she's gotten stronger because of it. Now four years later she has gained independence and is out of the house doing what God wills her to do. I firmly believe she will be the clay in His hands to be shaped into what He desires most of her, and I couldn't be more proud.

I am sincerely very proud of my two closest friends and what they've been through over the years. They have pushed, pulled and withstood every test - more than I could ever do. I do envy their courage as I have little compared to them. My beloveds, I pray you both be safe and strong in this new year ahead of you. Thank you for choosing me to be your confidant and friend. I love you both very much.

Ever get one of those urges to listen to nothing except the Beach Boys? lol I just suddenly got that good vibration. TBB brings back good memories of family vacations in the old wagon, driving to Florida and going to the beach. What I'd give to re-live one of those memories...

If everyone had an ocean across the USA! ^_____^ *brick'd*

Catch a wave?

I feel like taking a drive in my baby, because I get around! LAWL!

Btw, layout got a revamp, like it always does after Christmas. YYH FTW!

Happy birthday, my beloved 13thleprechaun! I shall be calling you when I get off work! *hugs!*